I'm trapped inside this god forsaken place we call home.
my music selection is very vast , including a lot of slow alternative, retro pop, riot girl vocals, and a lot more. High schools the worst , whoever said "high school is the best 4 years of your life" can go to hell. I work and provide for myself (with the exception of food). I am a very studious person, considering soon I'm planning on attending college and pursuing my dream career as a pharmacist. Ive been raised a christian but believe more in Buddhism and Buddha's beliefs. Ive lived my life through many hardships, downfalls, and setbacks but i choose to stay strong and not pull that trigger. If your seeking a fun and eventful blog don't even bother. If you knew me in real life you wouldn't guess a person like me would talk like this but that is why i am encouraged to start blogging. To show people my insights, my inner most emotions, and temptations. a person may find my life intriguing so let me know if you like what you read.
The latest decision in my life is whether or not to follow my intuition or let my physical needs take over. its clear that its just for the sex for him, he even said it. but do i want to add another to my list ? another if i know that its not gonna go anywhere and make me feel more alone then before ? is it worth it ? is the continuous sex pleasurable enough ? sex has been proven to release stress and tension.. you see the human bodies function in a very peculiar order. first you fantasize and then when you cant keep it inside you start asking around what to do and let others influence your opinion. This leads to an approach-avoidence result, meaning a good or bad outcome. most of the time temptations and lust control your thoughts like a malaria infested bug bite that has bit you. what will my mind come to declare?
